Poured In Love In A Scared-As-Hell Moment
Anna Allison-Burgess
January 14, 2022
July 5, 2021, will never be a memory. That day is as real today - six months later - as it was then. What began as a few hours of relaxing and enjoying the beach, soon became one of those large, life-altering events.
I walked slowly into the ocean to feel the coolness and relaxing surge of the waist-high waves. When I was comfortable with where I was, I turned to face the shore and allow my body to relax and flow with the waves; just as I had done many times in my sixty-six years of.life.
The next few minutes felt like hours. The mighty power of the ocean had been assigned to me - a rip current consumed me with heaviness of resignnent. My efforts of escaping were in vain.
What was only a brief period of time, was an eternity. I gave up. There was nothing more for me - my fear changed to peace; then to a thankfulness that makes me weep big, blurry tears of happy. I was recued. Saved by a young man who was at the right place and right time to assist the Almighty with the saving of my life.
Givng up is not in my suitcase. Never had been - until that moment in time. Life as it was - was no longer. What is the right word, or words, to describe that 'giving in' moment of drowning? The only words that seem to fit are 'scared-as-hell love'. Simple. Love poured from the unknown that was somehow known. What I felt, heard and experienced in that enlightening moment of surrender belong to me.
I believe in many things; and I have been given many gifts. Being poured with 'love' in a 'scared-as-hell' moment was an exceptional gift. I get to breathe another moment, love my family a little longer, kiss the faces of my precious grands, dance in the rain if I choose, and on and on and on. I have been allowed to spend another few moments in this place and time.
I have been poured with great love, and I plan to stay 'scared-as-hell' - that will work for me. I breathe. I believe. I know. Today is enough.
